You still have doubts and anxieties about the inevitability of this great event – from Saul through John Smallman, April 22, 2012
As the moment of your awakening approaches, many of you are feeling that continuing to hold the Light is draining your energy, because despite your faith you still have doubts and anxieties about the inevitability of this great event. This is very understandable because you have become accustomed to the disappointment of missed opportunities, missed meetings, and unrealized events or occurrences to which you had been looking forward with eager expectation. And you fear that you will once again be disappointed.
The illusion will always lead to disappointment; that is its nature, and because you have spent so much time in it you have come to expect that. But you are divinely created beings of enormous power, which means that you have the power to change the illusion and to awaken from it. Collectively, humanity is always changing the illusion by the very act of thinking about what is going on within it, although, because your thought processes are so conditioned by the illusion, what occurs often seems to be the complete opposite of what you hoped for and intended. Many of you, while hoping for the best, expect the worst and consequently, that is what it delivers.
Those who would control you encourage that line of thought as that is precisely what they are attempting to achieve – the worst (as you see it) – because they believe it strengthens their influence over you. It seems to you that there is little you can do individually to change things for the better and so you allow doubt, depression, and basically negative judgments and attitudes to occupy your minds. Doing this is giving away your power! – giving it away to those who claim to know what is best for you, and who create situations to encourage you to believe that this is so. And those attitudes encourage those with whom you interact to do the same.
This is a very strong, negative feedback-loop which you must, you can, and you will disable by firmly continuing to hold the Light. That is your task, your responsibility, and your reason for being earthbound at this moment in humanity’s evolution. You have all the spiritual assistance you need to overcome your doubts and fears, but you have to use it by holding the Light on high for all to see.
Be positive! Your awakening is divinely assured, and deep within yourselves you absolutely know this. So release your doubts – they are totally without validity – and breathe in the Love that awaits your acceptance of It. Love will then envelop you, brightening the Light that you carry, dispelling your doubts, and raising your energy levels.
When you release your doubts, even if you can only do so for short periods initially, your whole personality brightens, and those around you feel this. Think of a time when you heard a motivational speaker who raised your spirits, and realize that when you are without doubts, you too are a motivational speaker! And this uplifts and encourages others.
The purpose of holding your Light on high is to motivate yourselves, and all those with whom you interact, to awaken. As I said, you have the all help from the spiritual realms that you need in order to do this, but you too have to respond with the strong intent to awaken, because you have free will and you cannot and will not be coerced into doing so. God’s Will for you is that you use your divine gifts – free will, love, compassion, acceptance, forgiveness, and so on – as you truly desire. But you can only do this by releasing your doubts, fears, and anxieties, or any feelings that suggest to you that you are not truly worthy.
When you harbor those restrictive beliefs and cling to them, convinced that they are valid, you are allowing your ego to rule you, confirming your fears, and leading you to project judgment onto others and strengthening your own need to be right; and in that state what your ego tells you appears to be the truth, and your desire to follow its guidance seems to make total sense.
However, when you release those beliefs – and truly they no longer serve you – you will find yourselves feeling much freer. Your true desires will come to mind – your desires that are always in alignment with the divine. Open your hearts, allow Love to suffuse them, breathe It in, feel It filling your whole being – and understand how much God loves you.
With so very much love, Saul.